Yesterday was not a banner day for me.  I had a rough day what with something happening to my van, my husband not having a way to work since our other vehicle is already immobile, and my mood is still a little depressed from the cold I had.  I just got so frustrated yesterday I cheated a little.  I went about 250 calories over my daily target(that may not sound that bad, but I am still really disappointed in myself) by eating candy.  I also ate a lot of empty calories instead of what I should have been eating.  I know life is going to keep happening and all the bad stuff is not going to be put on hold because I am on a diet, but this is where I have failed many times before.  I am going good, losing weight and then all of a sudden...BAM...life hits and your sitting in the emergency room with your kids, you're on the phone with your auto insurance company, you don't have quite enough money to pay that last bill, or you're arguing with your husband because he has no way to work and apparently that is your fault(no bitterness there...really!).  I have to learn to let things go and stay on track, things always find a way of working themselves out.  Things are a little better today but we still have no car and a week full of activities planned;  our children have dance, cub scouts, we wanted to go to the pool, and we had planned to start hitting the weight room at the school.  You start to think that all the forces of the world are against you losing weight and this is what causes me to not be as successful as I know I can be.  I have lost a lot of weight before and I know it really is just a state of mind, but I am continuing my journey and there is nothing that can make me stop.  I just know that things would go a lot smoother and faster if I could figure out how to get myself into that state of mind.  I am out of ideas and need help.  I want to make it clear to myself and the world, I am not trying to make excuses and I am going to keep plugging away no matter what.

As for Adam...obviously he is experiencing the same highs and lows as I am, he just handles them differently.  Somehow that wonderful man can let things go so easily...I envy him.  He has stuck to his diet and is continuing to work to his potential.  His one set back will be today into tomorrow.  He is forced to stay at work tonight because he has no ride and that will mean I won't be there to put his food together with the appropriate amount of calories and nutrients for the day.  I believe in him though and I know he will try his hardest to at least eat healthily and stay near his calorie intake for the day.   Hopefully he will update on his own as well come Monday or Tuesday. 

Well, tomorrow is a new day and no matter my state of mind I will stick to my diet and I will try my hardest to get that dreadful, I mean wonderful, exercise in.  So, until then...