I went away with my husband for my birthday and we got home yesterday.  We had a really good time with each other, but we didn't really eat too well.  I am not going to stress over it though, we went right back to our diet when we got home.  We didn't weigh-in on Tuesday because that is the day we left and we forgot.  I guess we will just skip this week and do it next week.  Too bad too because I weighed in a couple days early and I was down 4 lbs. and now with the couple days we took off I will probably be back up. 

 

My partner for BL6 and I are in the process of putting together a video, I hope we get a call this time.  I am trying to be as optimistic as possible, but it just felt like they didn't even see me when I was there.  It is started to get to me and I am losing confidence again.  I always do this to myself, I look for something to say "that is what messed me up".  I just feel like if they look at me and see someone not worthy of being on the show and losing weight, then I am not worth it, I can't do it, I don't deserve it.  I am not giving up that easy though, I am getting up dusting myself off and trying again.  I want to be on the show so badly, I think it is the one thing that can save my life and I AM NOT GIVING UP, NOT THIS TIME!!!!!  My life is worth living and my kids are worth living for!!